Sunday, January 29, 2012


I'm feeling fine even if it's hurt. I'm alone yesterday night, wasted my time, crying alone. No truth but lies that hurt me. I'm just having conversations with the thoughts in my head. All I hear are the lies you've told me. I won't be please to hear it once again. It would be wrong for me to say. I don't need you by my side. I don't need you in my life. I don't want to talk it out or hold you when you're sad. I don't want to say ' you're my kind. I don't want to say ' I wish you're mine'. I don't want to tell you ' I love you more than life'. Honestly, this won't do. How are you doing? I tell myself, I'm feeling swell. but I know, I'm such a fool. I could take it as a new beginning but you know, I don't feel that way. Who will take all this pain away? I know it's wrong for me to say about a sin. was the day, I walked into the other side. I would run back in. I wouldn't waste no time.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012


I had ever wish that I was her, ever close my eyes and think about what could've been. I find it hard to breathe. Look at me, in my eyes. and tell me that you feel nothing inside. cause I can't wash you off my mind. so, I'll forget I love you. give up on us and don't want you anymore. I'll keep on lying to myself, cause we could've had it all. and I should keep pretending that you're only just an ordinary friend. Look at me, tell me lies.

I'm healing.

You and I had something beautiful. but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last. I loved you so but I let you go. cause I knew you'd never love me back. Such pain as this, shouldn't have to be experienced. I'm still reeling from the loss and still a bit delirious. Near to you, I am healing but it's taking so long. cause though you've gone but memories last forever. It's hard to move on. You and I have something different and I'm enjoying it cautiously. I'm battle scarred. I am working so hard, to get back to who I used to be. you're disappearing fading steadily. I'm so close to being yours.