Tuesday, May 31, 2011


School may be hard, annoying and irritating. but admit it, I love it:) I'm just a normal person but I have to act like I'm strong. I'm strong under all difficulties. I wouldn't ask God for not giving me problems. cause I probably felt that I'm useless when I don't meet trouble. trouble usually like friends. they do walk with us. and some leave us. and met someone new. I prays to God. Give me the power to face problems. I wouldn't ignored problems. I would like to face it than to ignored it. problem have to accepted to be forgotten. but, one problem that wouldn't pleased to have it. that's you. don' leave me. I need strength. you're my strength:) it's takes a long time to say goodbye:) I can say hello instantly when I fall in love with you.

Don't want to talk about it anymore.

If my life is going to mean anything that was because I love you. I want to live cause I love you. I love you cause I need you. True love is rare, and it's the only thing that gives life real meaning. Hey Clone, let me be, was all I wanted. I gonna be what I am, no matter how I am. Bye Clone:) I do adore you. cause you do adore me:) you give me feeling to adore you:) I always forget the things I should remember & remember the things I should forget. that's why I get hurt easily. I'm not fine but I don't want to talk about it anymore.

Feelings are strong:)

We were so in love and we thought it'd last forever. could this ever happen between us?:) Sometimes when feelings are strong it's hard to see what's really going on. Am I right?:) you did mistakes, so do I. you hurt me. and I do. you bring me down. did I? no matter how many times we forgive each other. there's a gaps after all. why do this ever happen between us? don't you just hate it? before you hurt others, you should feel it. it's painful.isn't it? I just want to get to a place in my life where the heartbreak, the pain & the tears are all distant memories:) is that possible? do you know, every time I think of it I'll pinch myself cause I just don't believe it's true. that someone like you loves me too. aww:) I'd learn the most important things in life that was how to give out love and to let it come in, since I knew you.


I usually the one who set up a conversation for you to say something nice:)but then you reply with 'OK. or just a words. you starts the conversation but I'm the one who set up a conversation. it's weird. isn't it?:) I just don't get it:)cause I don't know:)why do you have to treat me like this?:)I'm happy when I get a message from you. and I'm willing to wait for your reply. but, your late reply make me think that you're smsing with the others. I know that I'm too sensitive. and that's me. don't ever try to change me. I am who I am. I want you to love me for who I am. not love the another ME!:)that's a clone of me. Mistakes are painful, but they're the only way to help us figure out who we are. It is raining in my eyes when you did mistakes and it's paining in my heart when you're asking for forgiveness.


Sorry, but I don't need any part- time people in my life:) You're either with me, or you're not. You can't just come & go as you please:) you're not allow to do so:) it's hurt a lot:) I do create my own storms, then get upset when it rains:( and I just hate it:) bad decision make good stories:) and you're one of them:)your world is my world:)people do say that relationship are like gum. they're supposed to be long- lasting yet they don't last forever. Juicy at first and then totally flavorless:) to that, I disagree:) cause I feel attracted to your appearance, but I fall in love with your personality:) I'll never want to loose you cause I'll never try to leave you:) and I don't share:) I just want to have you all by myself so that no one can get you.your heart, your love and you:) except me:) I know that I'm selfish:) and I'm here:)admit it:)being honest to everyone:) I will show the world what's inside my heart and be loved for who I am:)

Monday, May 30, 2011

The girl:)

I wanna be the girl:) You'll be the one who comes up behind me:)wraps your arms around my waist:) catches me off guard:) and whisper to me and say:) 'I love you:)aww:) In a relationship. I want 2 things. eyes that don't cry:) and love that won't die:) but sometimes I have to cry out all the tears to make room for a heart full of smiles:) Even though times are tough, hang in there. I know I can do it:) I have to be happy with who I am, before I can be happy with who I am with:)I'll always remember to be who I am:) I was born this way:) I'm single and I'm not taken. I'm simply on reserve for the one who deserves my heart. cause people do say good things take time:) you're a girl behavior makes you cute:) your face makes you pretty and your personality makes you beautiful. that's the problem:) I love you:) you do talk too much:)laugh too loud and that's the price of love:) I realize that I do that too:)

I'm banged up.

I'm banged up. Mentally and emotionally. Literally and metaphorically. but everyday I carry a smile because that's who I am. I'm tired for being another me. I can't afford it anymore. too tired for words. I realize that almost everyone thinks about changing the world to something better, but no one thinks to change themselves to be someone better. I want to make changes about it. Is it possible. can I?:)If you've ever been in love. you'll know my feeling. how I feel insane and time passes so slowly when I'm not with her. how she dominate my thoughts and I can almost feel my darling with me. how I can't help but smile when I know she's thinking about me. How when things aren't going well it drives me insane, and I can't seem to think straight. How when she's not longer mine. I miss her so much and I feel that dull emptiness in my chest. most of all, I'll know how she's literally everything to me, and nothing can change that:)

That's really matter:)

Life is like a roller coaster. It has its ups and downs, but it's your choice to scream or simply enjoy the ride:)for me, I'll prefer to just simply enjoy the ride:) I can't change the reality. reality can only be accepted. can't be ignored:( Life is like a box of chocolates. You'll never know you're gonna get. I'll never get too attached to anyone because attachments lead to expectations & expectations lead to disappointments. I'm truly happy with myself and the way things are that's all the matter:)Life is a book. I'm writing. It's not perfect and I make mistakes. I'd hurt people. unfortunately, I'm writing in pen and nothing can be erased. I wouldn't ever let the past stop me from beginning something new! I know it's gonna be awesome:)Greater things yet to come so always think positive and keep moving forward!:)Being challenged in life is inevitable, being defeated is optional shouldn't be about what others think of you. Life is a school for angels. Love is the teachers. so do your homework without fear:) Death is merely graduation. Love your beloved ones with no fear:) can you?:) for me, I've already did:) Life is like a coin. you can spend it anyway you wish but you only spend it once:) appreciate it:) spend it wisely:)

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

I've changed:)

I hate when the only person I could tell my problems to becomes the person my problem are about:) but, I don't mind:) as long as I'm with you:) not all scars show, not all wounds heal, sometimes you can't see the pain that someone feels:) so, don't ever judge me by knowing my name, but not my story. you might heard what I've done with. not what I've been through:) alright?:)actually, when you're judging a person does not define who they are, it defines who you are:) anger makes me smaller while forgiveness forces me to grow beyond what I am:) I've grown. I've changed:) People haven't always been there for me, but music always has:) cause you're always here:) sometimes it's not the song that makes me emotional, it's the people and things that come to my mind when I hear it:)

Sunday, May 22, 2011

I really am:)

The best way to escape from the past is not to avoid or forget it, but to accept and forget it:) you're been forgotten by me:) because I've accepted the fact that you've leave me:)without any valid reason:) 1 things to be remembered in life:)is to keep things in my hearts which could hurts others:) but I'll never try to hurt someone especially you by hiding something in my heart:)I'll never hurt you:)I'll keep you save with me:)never give anyone the chances to hurt you:)safe in my hugs:)feel the warm:)and I'll love you for the rest of my life:)Live for you:)love for you:) change for you:) and ME for you:) I love that awesome moment when you just can't stop smiling:) and Imma the reason behind it:) it's sweet:)aww:) It's not hard to find someone who tells you that they love you, it's hard to find someone that actually mean it:) and when I said 'I love you':) I really mean it:)I really am:)do love you:)

Saturday, May 21, 2011


Friends are like stars. some come and go:)it's your optional to stay or leave:)but the ones that stay are the one that glow:)that's my darling:)you have no optional:)you could just stay with me:)I wouldn't let you go:)you're my life:)without you, there's no life for me to live:) There's no word that I can describe you, there's no object that can replace you, there's no unhappy moment when I'm with you:)you're the one and the only one in my life and I'm the one and the only one in your life:)Kenru Foo Wai Sum love Kar Meng:) K&K:)KM&KM:) aww:)it's sweet :)sweet than a sugar floss:) you're the best thing that has ever happen to me:) I really am happy to be with you:) you're being appreciate for being who you are to me:)my darling:)your hugs made me warm, your love kept me safe:) your words show your honestly:) your action showed me, how much you love me:) I have love you first:) I wouldn't love others. but only you:)


Learn from your past, live your present, and prepare for your future:) don't judge by the past:)you don't live there anymore. Appreciate your life, make the best of it:) you won't regret it:)You only have one life to live, so you better make the best of it:)and I will:) Life isn't fair all the time, but it's still good:) always remember it:) there's a lot of people with different personality. some people lies just because they scare that we can't handle the truth:) some people meant to be mean, just to make things better:) some people can't handle the small things, and please don't expect people to believe you can handle the big ones:) it might make up a problem:) you can't lead others, when you only do what others want you to do:)not what you what yourself to do:) you know that, birthdays are good for your health. studies have shown that people who have more birthdays live the longest. due to GEOGRAPHY:)

Thursday, May 19, 2011

How much I love you?:)

Love strengthen and weaken me at the same time:)Love is like the gravity that pulls every human being towards each other:)One of the happiness things on Earth is when I know that I'm in love with someone who is more in love with me:) Happiness starts with, one word. One joke. One text. I stupidly smile at the phone when I see your name on the screen. One phone call:) One song. One hug:) and the love that you gave to me:) aww:)thanks, darling:)I can't tell you how much I love you, but just see how I act when I'm with you:)and you totally will understand:) It's almost as impossible to tell you how much I love you:)as it is to count all the ripples in the ocean:) Never expect, never ask and never demand:)Just let me love you till the end:)because if it's meant to be, it'll happen just the way we want things to be:)

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Anyone but you.

All I ever wanted was to be wanted. I wish you'd want me as much as I want you:)There are no ordinary moments when I'm with you:) I'll take it moment by moment:) but, somehow. I think we don't love much. The silence on your part made me hurt. say something, tell me everything. can you?Its always better to know and be disappointed, then to not know and stay wondering. and It only hurts when you start pretending it doesn't. you came back and replaced what had missing between us. but, do you know that something just don't mean to change when I tell you what's wrong. I hate those gaps between us. We even look like stranger when we talked. URGGH. I just hate the fact that I put myself in a position to be let down in the first place. do you know that? you've pissed me off, you've made me cry, you've made me scream. but at the end of the day, I wouldn't want to be with anyone but you:)I can't promise you a perfect relationship. without argument over our differences & trust issues. However, I can promise you as long as you're trying. I'm staying.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Somewhere over the rainbow:)

Life isn't always sunshine and butterflies. Sometimes you got to learn to smile through the pain:) and that's usually done by me:)smile through all the pain that you gave to me:) If something is too easy to get, it's just as easy to forget:) you're hard to get and you're impossible to be forgotten:) Not all of us can do great things:) but we can do small things with great love:) anything is worth doing, it is worth doing it:)I wish that you are really the one for me:)hoping and wishing so much:)everyone wants what they can't have:) but if I begin to love what I have, I won't need anything else:)except you:) Am I right?:) you are the splash of color in my black and white world:) and just make my life wonderful:) fills the white and black world with your love:)and it will be 'somewhere over the rainbow":)

60 seconds:)

I hate those moments right before I go to sleep where I'm forced to think about all the moment I'm tried so hard to forget:) I know that, we ain't any relationship, but I need your hugs, smile, advice, kindness & the times we laugh together:) I just feel in love with our friendship:) I'm perfect in my imperfections, secure in my insecurities, happy in my pain and strong in my weakness. I am ME:)but, it doesn't mean that I'm strong enough when you're leave me:) Have a nice life. I'm done trying to be in it:) For once, I can say I am happy:) and I never mean it:)The moment I smile, you know I'm unhappy. The moment I laugh. you know I was pretending everything its okay:) you are the only one that understands me, even when I don't understand myself:) and there's come a moment, I'll laugh so hard and I try to stop:) but I look at you and I'll laugh again:)because of your stupid jokes:) I know that every 60 seconds I spend sad or upset, is a whole minutes of happiness I will never get back:)so, I always create happiness in myself:)

Sunday, May 8, 2011

That's secret:)

Don't lie to your loved ones. The truth hurts for a little while, but lies hurt forever:)alright?:) you may not be the only reason why I smile, but you're definitely one of my favorites:) Do you know that?:) It's awkward when people say that. we're in love and we're couple but we're been friends from the very first times:) Imma tell you something:) last time, I used to feel nervous when I get to meet up you:) and I was like:)I can't tell anyone that I like you:) but, I just can't deny it anymore:) I love you:)that was last time:)and that's secret too:)but, now:) I could proudly said that ' you're mine:)how sweet it is?:) you're ain't a beauty queen:) you're just a beautiful you:)

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Almost impossible :)

When you smile like that, it's almost impossible for me to look away:)cause, you're cute:)Everyone has someone in their life that keeps them looking forward to another day. who's that someone that keeps you look forward to another day?:)probably wouldn't be me:)ahaha:)just kidding:)you know right, who's my 'someone'?:)it only can be the only 'you:)you make me smile all the time. no lie:)even when I can't see you. I just think of you, and yeah. It's wonderful. you're wonderful:) I don't know where I stand with you or know what I mean to you. all I know is every time I see you:) my brain is 'blank:) and I just love that way:)