Saturday, April 30, 2011

what is love?:)

1 Universe, 8 planets, 201 countries, 809 islands, 7 seas, and I had the privilege to meet you. You're simply special. pretty special to me:)you're original, cannot be replaced.what is love?:)love is to love someone for who they are, who they were and who they will be.I love you. You love me. you love me, it's because I love you. the greatest feeling in life is to love and be loved in return. you wouldn't understand the feeling, till you're the one who are waiting to be loved in return. you and her might have history. but you and I have chemistry. Without you, tomorrows wouldn't worth the wait and yesterdays don't deserve to be remembered. I'll remember every second that I'd been through with you.

you don't understand.

I'm sorry, but you should know that I'm not perfect, I do make mistakes and I'm sorry for that but I'm only human. don't expect too much from me. I can't give you what you want. cause I'm taken. I know that, I have to speak up. be heard. If I don't say a word, everything will stay the same way. hurting you continuously. When I ask how your day was, I genuinely want to know. Although, I care my darling more than you, more than anyone. but, you have to know one thing. that was I'll never ignore you who loves and cares for me. I wouldn't be the one who realize that you've the moon while counting the stars. I do love you, love you not that much as I put. You will never understand what you mean to me.

Friday, April 29, 2011

Never expect.

Everything is taken away for a reason. so that there would be space for something better. I'm not sure which was the bigger lie, when you said I could trust you or when you said you loved me. don't tell half truths and expect trust. I'm not really child- minded. I just want you to treat me as your baby. but, I'll never be cause I'll never try. I'll never know what you say and what you try to mean it to me. you shouldn't expect me to read your mind. Expecting something only leads to disappointment. so, I always there. telling myself. it's impossible. it's risky. it's pointless. but, I'll always give me a chance to try. cause my heart whispered.but, love always come in a way you never expect. A dream is a wish your heart makes. the pain never went away. I just got real good at hiding it. its amazing what you can hide by putting on a smile. isn't it?:) It hurts when all you want is to be everything someone could ever want, then you realize to them you alone just aren't enough.

Did you say so?:)

A relationship without trust is like plane with no wings. I want to earn your trust. I'm trust-able. I'm sad, when you're sad. share your sadness with me. can you?:) or did I do anything wrong?and make you down about it? I know that, love. it can bring someone up, it can bring someone down. It can keep us at night. crying or smiling. :(I'm sorry. seriously, sorry. I know that, it's easier to smile even if you're hurting inside, than to explain to the whole world that.why? you're sad.but, sometimes. It's really sad when I realize that I care about you a lot more than you care about me. you protect me for danger. and I could feel that. I realize that you could be jealous. if someone was talking or communicate with me more closer. and I'm just so happy about that. Sometimes thoughts and feeling had be kept a secret in order and one day came out and its really surprise me. for the first time, in a very long time, my heart and my head agreed on one thing. that's 'I love you":) I know that, there comes a time when I have to choose between turning the page and closing the book. but, I tell you that. I never ever wanted to close the book. everyone have their book. some of them having 1, 2, 3.. and even more than it could be. but, I'll be enough. to have 1 book in my life. that was you. completely is you. I am you. you am I. both of us love each other and we're together. remain the best relationship. "friend":)rather than "lesbian partner" :)ahh:)just kidding:)

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Count on me:)

Imma tell you what true love is. I'm telling you right now true love is sacrifice. Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself love is selfless not selfish. Love is when you lay down your life for someone. someone special. You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here. I remember all those crazy thins you said, you left them running through my head. and it's made me miss you so badly. I miss all those crazy things you said and did to one can change a person, but someone can be a person's reason to change. and you're the reason behind it. why am I change. All I need is a hand to hold, a body to hug and a heart to love. and I found you. I'll stop loving you when apples grow on mango trees on the 30th of February :)I'm wearing the smile you gave me:)can you see?:)ahah:)and you can always count on me like the way that I used to count on you.

Friday, April 22, 2011

The deepest scars.

Your laugh is the best sound I've ever heard. Hurt me with the truth but, never comfort me with a lie. can you?:) I won't lie to you, but I will hold back the truth until you're strong enough to hear it. Sometimes I forgive you simply because I still want you in my life. In a relationship, communication doesn't mean just talking. It mean sharing and understanding each other. and thanks for your sharing and understanding. I don't mean to hurt you. and I thought that you wouldn't mind if you have to share me between others. but, I seriously did a very bad thing to you. and I'm sorry for that. I always remember there are no mistakes, only lessons. Love myself, trust my choices, and everything is possible. Now, problems solve. and yea. no sharing. fair enough?:)trouble is a part of my life, and if I don't share it, I don't give the person who loves me enough chances to love me enough. but, one thing. I wouldn't share you with others. I can't. True love burns the brightest, but the brightest flames leave the deepest scars.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

A complete "WE:)

I blame you for everything, the pain & hurt. the tears, everything. and my friends do blame you for my bad result and bad behavior. but I still love you. No matter how serious & hard life gets. I'll always have that one person I act completely stupid with:)and that was you. It will always be you. you are the reason that I'd change. I'm totally changed.I'll trust my hopes, not my fears. Every girl has four personality. When I'm with my family. When I'm with my friends. When I'm with her & when I'm alone. You and me is all we need. A complete 'WE':)

Should be a limit:)

I miss our talks, I miss you making me laugh, you were my rock, you were always there to make things better:)I want to feel your arms around me and hear you say something sweet in my ear:)♥ will you tell them to me?:)I'm missing you because your not here with me. I want you to hold me tight because I feel safe with you. There should be a limit to how much you can actually miss someone. Its just been 5 days and I going crazy already. I wish that there was 6 school days and 1 week day. I'm gonna tell you 'one time' that I need 'somebody to love so 'love me' & I'll be that 'One less lonely girl' & your 'favorite girl:)Justin Bieber was right, when you smile, I smile:)darling:)

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

You're special:)

Relationship aren't supposed to be complicated. I take care of you. and so do you. end of the story. I love you:)it's sweet. and I'm loving it. thank you darling:) The person who really loves you can feel your sadness, happiness and everything in your heart. and so do you:) here you are, poem by my darling for me:)
You're special to me.
Only you, I don't dare to speak up.
Only you, I don't simply mess around with
Only you. can make me feel this happy
Around you, makes me nervous and shy
Around you, makes me feel like I'm needed and loved
In my heart there's only you:)

Spare my feelings:)

I'm not stalking you. I just want to know if you ever think about me and put it on 'What's on my mind?:) you do said that, people may lie to do something bad. but, I lie to you. It's for your own good. It's take to make you happy. but, please don't tell me lies just to spare my feelings, I'd rather know the truth now then finding out later. alright?:) When you make me weak, I get up say to myself I'm strong. People say everything happens for a reason, but it would be nice to know some of the reasons why. but, not those sucks reason. happen for a better reason. don't ask me, why do I look so sad. How can I tell you what's wrong with me when you are the reason behind it?:) Smile don't let the tears fall. In the end, everything will be okay. Someday, everything will make sense. Laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears & remind yourself that everything happens for a reason.

I miss you.

I planned to tell you all the mean things, for all that you have put me through, but in the end all I can say is "I MISS YOU:)Sometimes when you like someone enough, you can't really put into words how you feel. like I do. and you just kind of look at them, and well you just know. If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you made me smile. I would have the whole night sky in the palm of my hand. I just need a minute to restart my heart. broken heart.
Just give me a minute to restart my heart :)It's hurt .Jealously is killing me. If it doesn't hurt.It isn't love. isn't it?:)Always and forever seems nice at first, but as time goes on you realize they're just words. no prove. My words are true. all you have to do right now, is trust me that you're ain't a fool for me but you gain a full jar of my heart. for every day, I miss you. for every hour, I need you. For every minute, I feel you. for every second, I want you. Forever, I love you.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

I'll never love you less:)

Never leave:)never fear:)

I'm such a jealous person when it comes to you:)If you leave me, can I come with you?:)ahaha:)you'll never leave. I know that:) it was because, you don't care who am I, where I'm from, what did I do, as long as I love you:)and as long as I live, I'll love you. and you'll never leave me:)Without dreams there is nothing to love:)and without love there is nothing worth dreaming about. dream as long as you live:) I have come to realize, that people really have an effect on your life, and if its good, you must tell them how much you love them NOW:)but, how am I gonna tell you?:)knowing that, all I ever did right now. is loving you.darling:)you know. the hardest thing to say is "Goodbye" when you're really in love with your beloved ones:)

Saturday, April 16, 2011


A million feelings, a thousand thoughts, a hundred memories. all for one person. my darling. Best relationship. It's when both of us know we're in love with each other yet. we stay FRIENDS!:) I wish you knew how perfect we are for each other:) you were the only one who I can laugh at, and who will laugh at me and neither of us would care that each other is laughing. I don't need a boyfriend. I need my darling. It so funny how you made me cry knows exactly what to say to make me smile:)and I'll fall back into love with you again:)Love waits for one thing, the right moment:)I promise to love you foreve.without the 'R' because that's the end of forever:)get what I mean?:)darling:)I love you, not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you:)I'll do what to makes you happy. be with you make me smile. and we'll laugh as much as we as long as we live. as we together:) I don't want to be your 'number one'. Number one implies there's number two neither a number three. I want to be your only one:)

Friday, April 15, 2011

I need you:)

Crushes only crush you. Falling only for you. Heart that will only break by you. you walk in my life and make me realize it never worked with anyone else. except you.darling:)you will always be my darling. not just because I love you but also you made me laugh every single moment when I'm with you. It takes you to make the ordinary moments, something to remember:) I love you, not because you're pretty, the reason is you're too special in my heart:)I was born without you, and I'll die without you. so why do I need you so much?:)because I love you. so, I need you:)

Wednesday, April 13, 2011


Failing in love is like failing asleep in class. you really not planning to, but you did:)Like I do:)how about you?:)I fallen for you cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen. not only the outer but also the inner:)your caring made me fall for you:)you do said that, you and me:)together we're one:)the special one:)and the only one:)together forever, never apart. Maybe in distance but never in're always next to my heart:)aww:)it's sweet:)I'm never gonna change because I have people that love me for me:)that was you:)

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Moon + Star = LOVE:)

You used to stay with me, you used to hug me when I need you. you used to hold my hand tightly and accompany me when I'm used to sleep by my side and I'll usually hold you tight by my side.and now, I missing those days. drama days. My first name and your surname fit perfectly together:)Chong Foo:)CF:)ahaha:)Relationship do not need promises, terms, and conditions. It just needs two wonderful people. and that was you and me:)darling, I don't need wishes to come true:)cause I had you:)Being with you is like having every single one of my wishes come true:)Life is short, break rules, forgive quickly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably & never regret anything that made us smile:)can you?:) we do hide ours fears, hurt, pain and tears under our each smiles and laughs all on a daily basis. The past cannot be changed, forgotten, edited or erased. It can only be, come let's us just accepted despite of ignoring:)

Monday, April 11, 2011

stupid jokes.

you do said that, if you did mistakes, there's always an eraser or correction tape to make it right.but, do you know that. trust is like an eraser, it gets smaller after every mistake. I know, I have to trust you.but, when I was truly trusted you, you just made everything seen to be wrong.
when we're fight. I'll fight back the urge to text you, call you. telling myself that I'm wrong although I'm the right one. I cheated on my fears. and now I'm okay.Love isn't just cuddling or whispering sweet nothings, its compromising, sacrificing & giving up something just to make the relationship last longer. I'll compromising, sacrificing &giving up something just to make our relationship last more longer. cause I don't want to lose you. I usually laugh at your stupid jokes.some made me cry. apologize from you made me feel bad. you really mean so much to me. and I'll tell life. because tomorrow's not guaranteed to anyone.

Sunday, April 10, 2011


Most relationship fail not because of the absence of love. sometimes, it's just. One loves too much & the other loves too many. I'm not willing to let go of you. but, I'm sorry. I'd did.I have to do so. I don't know how I feel about anything anymore. My mind is a mess. I miss the way, we used to be.but, we can't. I don't understand these things. my feeling. people say you don't know what you got until its gone. truth is, you knew what you once had, you just thought you wouldn't lose it. I never thought that I'll tell you the word."break". It's hurt.and I never thought that these days passed so fast. how could this ever happen between us? I just so speechless for everything. I'm useless. I can't do anything. when I have to choose between you and 'something.I can't lose you and so do the 'something. It's a part of my life. and I don't ever want to lose it. till someday. and this decision do made people happy. some 'people'. but, not me.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

like turns to love:)

I miss how we used to talk every minute of every day & how I was able to tell you everything that was on my mind. I miss our conversations. How about you?:)do you miss it, like I do?:) If you miss, if you cared, you would have bothered to talk to me. aren't you?:)Love is about you, me and something that we build between us:)you've probably asked me who I liked. I said, 'no one.' but, what I really meant was, 'no one but you.':)' Like' as a friend. 'like' as respect. There are so many different kinds of 'likes.' But, I like you as someone special for me.and it's turn into love. like is when I know the best side of you and like you. Love is when I know the worst side of you could ever have. and I still love you with everything I have in my heart.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Hug you:)

I want to hug you so badly cause I miss you. and I never let go.just to be spontaneous, hold hands with you and show you off the world. I want you and the only you. Never underestimate the power of a hug, it can ease someones pain in less than a second. I found out I'll never love another person as much as I love you. Do you believe in this?Missing you is a part of loving myself. If I never be apart with, I'll never really know how strong is my love for you. and I found that 'it strong.It's like you and I make sense together & that we're meant to be. Just wish you could feel the same way. what's more important? what we become or how we become it?:)aahha:)

Thursday, April 7, 2011

heart speak.

You're always on my mind, in my heart, and in my soul, forever a part of me.Come live in my heart, and pay no rent. will you?:) Your words are my food, your smile my wine. You are everything to me. Heart is the only true voice in us. Mind isn't. We don't have the ability to control our heartbeats, but we can control our mind. either to think or not to think. Think before you speak. Think before you do. follow your heart. follow the flows. think positive. don't ever think that you made a wrong choice after following what your heart speak. It's happen. happen for a reason. believe in. Learn from mistakes, it's the mind that made us did mistaken we don't even want to. Mind control all our voluntary actions. and do make think happen. nothing can change this fact. despite after this. Stick to the voice of your heart. but not your mind.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

April Fool

In this world full of liars, they do turns out a scam to trick you.and the only best thing you can do is stay true to yourself, no matter what happens. All you ever hope for,that's someone will come along & be true to you.I always believe that your words are true.and I always there to believe in you.but, you just trick me like this.and this really do made me sad and I do cry for it.although, I know its was just a joke. and ya!its was the best April Fool trick.ever.I'll always remember how you made me do feel sad about that.there are some things I just don't admit that I don't like it.although, I don't like the way it're my umbrella in the rain.the pain killer to my're my ice cream when I'm feeling blue. Darling, I'm so in love with you.yea.its was you. I can love one, I can love two. but, I'm know that I'm wrong. stay true to me. and believe in me. that I love you more than anyone.because god do said, it's better to love the one who loves you.and you do love me more than everyone love me. is that right?:)